I desperately need more hours in the day. It’s frustrating to know that the day is coming to an end and I’ve hardly done anything productive. Most of my days start off very early but today I got to sleep til 8 am which I can’t remember when I’ve done last. Jumping out of bed, checking to my baby because I though he was already up. He wasn’t which made it possible to go to the toilet in peace and make breakfast. Between breakfast and my son’s first nap I managed to workout. He didn’t wake up before after my shower which was amazing, but after that the day just went into a blur.
We drove to his grandparents in the early afternoon and came home 2 hours later. That would give me more than enough time to do what I need to do. But between diaper changes, making dinner and giving my son a bath there’s not much time left for me.
I’ve been sitting at my sewing machine for the last hour but I just can’t get it to work properly. I’ve seen X amount of YouTube videos on ‘how to’. Everything from threading to sewing, but they all make it seem so simple and here I am still struggling. If I haven’t told you I got a SERGER for my birthday this year but it was bough on eBay so it wasn’t exactly brand new. I thought I could just sit down and start sewing but one problem after another started appearing. I’ve change both knives, needles and all 4 threads – and I still can’t figure it out. Why does everything have to be so bloody difficult with me?
That was my Sunday rant. I just had to get it out so that I wouldn’t go crazy. Sometimes I wish things would just be simple, but I guess that’s just too much to ask for.
Anyway, I hope for a better day tomorrow. Until then, goodnight.
Today started off quite late but I guess thats allowed on Sundays. I fell back to sleep after being up from 8 to 10 am. And we all stayed in bed till 1 pm. Just about right for the weekend I think. Other than relaxing today, I’ve cleaned my car and put on a load of laundry. I’m planning on doing some creative work but I just have to get started with it. That’s always the hardest part, actually start with any project. Once I’ve started I can go on for hours.
I did plan on doing a workout as well but I think that has to wait till tomorrow. My body is extremely sore so I’ll take today as a rest day. I’ve also posted a new video on YouTube, so if you’re interested and have seven minutes to spare, you can check it out right here.
This took a while to edit (I’m new to iMovie), but I hope you like my new holiday movie. If you are on YouTube, please find me and subscribe. I make videos about Beauty & Fashion, but also the occasional holiday movie mixed in with some lifestyle videos.
Here are some highlights from my 4 day vacation in Crete, Greece. Enjoy!
While I’m spending my days sleeping, working out and eating I’ve had enough time to try out new recipes and also eating three day leftovers. Anyway, what I wanted was to share this easy but so delicious lunch recipe.
1. Whip the eggs together & add a bit of water or milk 2. Spice with salt, pepper and chicken seasoning 3. Warm a pan and add the cut onion and garlic 4. After a few minutes add the eggs and tomato at once 5. Finish with some grated cheese on top and let the omelet roast on a low heat.
You can eat the omelet alone or with some bread which I have done with heated mini baguettes with garlic butter.
On Monday I went to the doctors and got a check up, and since I work as a hairdresser my arms, shoulders and back have been hurting frequently over the last year. I’ve gone to treatments while I was still working but it didn’t seem to help. That’s why I’m spending 2 weeks at home right now hoping it will get better.
It’s really nice and relaxing to have a break from it all. Even though I miss the people I work with it’s not fun to work with a chronicle condition that makes you dread going to work every day cause you can’t preform your best.
Today was a mess, at least emotionally it was. I hardly write anything personal but I’ve felt so disconnected the last couple of days and only wrote the necessary. My head full with unanswered questions and my heart still holding on to the little bit of hope I have left. I’m not going to get into details but just writing that little phrase there helped. Talking helps, but nobody asks so there’s no one to tell my worries to. I write, but who reads my journals? That’s why it’s all just a mess.
I don’t want to complain because I’m having an amazing holiday and I’m so glad time stands a little bit more still here. Even now I still got 2 weeks left. But the thing that had me wanting to fly home right this second is fading and I’m scared. I’m scared I’ll come home to emptiness with a broken heart. I guess that’s what happens when you open your heart and you’re blinded by how much control another person has for your feelings. I could blame myself, that I dove in way too fast again. And all I’m left with now is checking my phone every five minutes.
When we love we love a lot. And even when the love is fading we hold on to the minimal love that is left and hope that our feelings will renew.
How much can you change for another person before losing yourself?
Though my head says no, my heart says go, so I’m going to try this one more time. I’ll call this our last chance, so don’t come crawling back if you leave again. And even if you do I won’t be broken, cause you can’t break a broken heart.