Today has physically and mentally been a long day. Even though it didn’t turn out the way I imagined, I’m so grateful for another year. You see, today is my birthday. 25 years ago my life started and I’m so grateful to have turned 25. Even though the number always scares me a little bit every year. But the thing is – I don’t feel 25. I guess it’s because I had this imagine of how 25 would feel and look like from a young age. And now that it has arrived, I don’t feel a day over 20, maybe 21. It’s like time stopped 5 years ago, even though it didn’t.
My plans today were having a huge breakfast, taking my son to daycare and then continuing the day with my daughter. I planned to meet my mum and we would have coffee and cake. I would take her home to my house and cut her hair, pick up my son and start dinner. I wanted my brother to come visit us and we would all have cake together, and maybe I would open some presents. All of this never happened because it couldn’t. And even though we plan, God plans as well and He is the Best of Planners.
Today didn’t happen has I imagined but I’m still so grateful for the family I’ve got, for my two healthy children who even at hard times bring a smile to my face, and for another year. God willing, I will have many more to come with my family by my side.
Ok, maybe I’m exaggerating, but I’ve not had the best 48 hours. Everything went downhill since Wednesday night and now I’m sitting here on the living room floor with the worst headache since this afternoon.
I don’t want to keep on dragging this complain wagon any longer, and I will try to look at life from a more positive way.
Even though we don’t celebrate Christmas, I do want to give something back to my family, especially my mum. And since this is a time of year where people usually meet, I ended up buying some gifts for my family.
It was most natural for me to buy something hair related since I work at a salon. So both my brothers will receive a shampoo. My oldest brother will also get a 3D puzzle I thought was so cool, maybe even something I should have bought for myself. And my brother in between will get a sports t-shirt. I still have my parents but I’ve got them covered with something.
I’m off to bed hoping to sleep away this awful headache. I have to be up, ready and back at the salon by 9 am, so good night.
I’ve been back at work the last two days after having (almost) a one year break. It’s safe to say I was quite nervous on Monday. Luckily I eased myself into it, only working a couple of hours a day and my first ‘customer’ was a college. Yesterday though, I had 2 paying customers. It felt like it went in slow motion, especially the first cut, but I managed to be done in time.
Today I have a day off and even though I feel like I do something ever single day, whether it’s laundry, cleaning or just look after my son, I can’t help to feel lazy. I don’t know why and I wish I didn’t beat myself up over it. It’s like everyone around me is so productive and I’m not even halfway to my goals.
We did manage to create a new office space so hopefully the creativity will just be flowing in this room. I really want to start sewing again reguallary and actually finish pieces I love and would want to wear. I have some huge ideas, I just don’t know how to get them down to paper and where to start. Fixing my serger to the right stitch lengths has also been a battle. I still have to figure out what the right settings are and how in the world I’m going to use it probably.
The last couple of days I've been roaming around at home, having 'Fuller House' as a background noise while I looked after my baby and myself. We've been sick since Monday, sneezing every two seconds, wrapped in blankets and wool clothes. Sleep is definitely the best medicine and hot lemon tea with honey.
On another note, my brother had his birthday on Tuesday so I tried myself out in the kitchen and made an (almost) vegan cake. Some ingredients I didn't even find in the store so I had to use my regular non vegan supplies.
Today we're back to drinking lemon tea, cuddling up on the sofa and trying to get rid of the yearly autumn flue.
It’s been a minute since I’ve been back here. Lately I haven’t really known what to write or share about. My life goes on with the same routine every day. My little one is almost eight months now, and I can’t believe where the time has gone. I only have three months left of this – being a stay at home mum. Even though it can become a bit too much at times I know I’m going to miss it.
Fall is upon us and I can already feel the colder air and the change of colors on the leaves. In my opinion fall is the best time of the year. Getting to snuggle up in cozy jumpers and warm socks. Drinking hot coco while enjoying the early evenings with lighted candles. There is no better time.
My birthday was this weekend and I turned 22. I never really gave much thought to the year when I turn 22. I guess it never crossed my mind fully.
My numbers start to feel empty. Years fly by like the wind, hardly even touching me. Leaving a cold shiver and then 365 days have gone by again.
When I look back it’s all just a blur. How is it that my childhood years went by so slow? And now it’s like life is running a marathon. Can’t it all just stop for a second? Let me live so that I can breath in all my memories.
Here I am getting lost in the endless space called the world wide web. Because it truly is a big web you get cough up in. But suddenly a lightning thought hits me and I remember I wanted to update you. Today was such an eventful day and spend with two of the handful of my favorite people.
For the longest time I’ve been wanting to go mini golfing and today we finally drove 30 minutes into the city and found a wonderful place. It was a bit crowded when we arrived but all the school kids who occupied the playground eventually left. And after lunch we slowly went our way to the park.
In deep concentration while figuring out how to make this shot. I actually ended up with 57 points in the end which is average but I did win the match between my mum and I.
6 pounds for 18 holes and an hour later we finished. Just in time before the rain started to pour down. Luckily the little one fell asleep just as we started our game and woke up just before we finished.
The sun only picked out a couple of hours in the early morning and afternoon before it turned quite cold and cloudy so I’m glad I wore something warmer. Not bad being a hijabi in Scandinavia when the summer is very bearable.
Today was a cold and gray day. Unlike yesterday when the sun was shinning and the flowers still bloomed. What a different a day can make. Now the sidewalk is covered with snow and there is yet again a cold breeze outside. It may go without saying but we stayed inside today. Even though I desperately need to make a trip to the grocery market because our fridge is running empty soon. Other than staying inside today I managed to clean a little, take an afternoon nap and start a new sewing project. Hopefully I’ll be able to share the process and result with you soon. I’ll be heading off to bed in less than twenty minutes so I’ll say goodnight now.
First day in February, the shortest month of the year, started off with a cold and rainy snowfall. I’ve already been on a stroll outside but today’s trip lasted less than half an hour. But since it is the first day of February I thought I’d share ten random facts about me – so here we go.
First thought when you looked in the mirror today? That I still have some glue left on my upper eyelids from yesterdays false lashes, which will probably take a day or two to get rid of.
Who is the 4th person on your ‘missed calls list’ on your phone? A call from our local health clinic.
What does it say in your last text message? Ca. 19:15 – Ok? A message from my dad wonder when he could come over yesterday.
What are you wearing right now? A pair of grey big sweatpants, a white nursing topp which I paired with a warm cardigan and then my blue turban, which has been my favorite style to wear lately.
What word do you use over and over? Probably the word ‘bismillah’ – meaning: ‘In the name of Allah (God)’. A word I use before I eat, drink, go to the toilet or go out.
Your favorite age so far in life? I’m pretty happy about the age I am at right now. Where I am in life and my situation. I’m truly blessed with the amount of love I have around me.
What’s your screensaver right now? Kinda boring, but I like to have everything neat and tidy, which includes my screensaver.
What’s the last thing you said to someone today? I do have regular conversations with my baby, but they are with no respons. So I guess it has to be when I said goodbye to my other half before he went of to work.
If you could change your name, what would you choose? This is a tough one because I do love my name, even though I never seemed to like it as much when I was younger. People always seemed to spell it wrong or pronounce it the wrong way, but now I’m quite content with it.
Which one of your instagram pictures has gotten the most likes? With my 150 followers there is not a lot of bragging to do here, but there was a time where I had an open profil and I did get a few more likes then I do now.
Now that I’ve almost used an hour for this blog post I must continue my day and that includes getting myself something to eat before the little one wakes up.
08.00 – My alarm goes off after hitting snooze way to many times – it’s inevitable, I have to get out of bed. 09.00 – Out the door 15 minutes before the usual time. Unfortunately it’s been snowing all night and my car is snowed in. 09.15 – I’ve finally finished shuffling enough snow to get me out of the drive way. Wheels start spinning and frustration keeps on building. 09.30 – I’m on the road, finally made it up the slippery road from the house, and now my windows are foggy. I can’t see anything, but I try gently to drive out on the road. I’m not going any more then 20 km/h in second gear up the hill before I decide it’s too dangerous. 09.35 – I stop by a bus stop and try fanatically to find a solution. My fan that usually get’s the car warm is broken and it doesn’t do anything. Fog is spreading all over to the back window and I’m stuck. 09.40 – I start crying, not seeing any solution. I’m less then 2 minutes from my house and I’m too afraid to drive back. I call my work and tell them I can’t come in today. After I hang up I get the worst panic attack and I feel as if I can’t breath. 10.15 – I’m back home and the car is parked. I’ve gathered myself but am still angry about the weather. I start shuffling the drive way in hopes to get out my frustration and don’t stop before the hour has passed.