I know it’s been two days since I’ve posted something, and that is just not ok. I could say that I’ve been busy with work which is true, but that doesn’t mean I can neglect you guys! I love to write and share, inspire and post, and I can only learn from this.
It’s Saturday and finally a day off for me. I don’t have anything special on the agenda today other then the usual cleaning that I try to do whenever I have a day off.
I actually get things done better when I see them written down and it makes me more motivated. I will check in with you later again today. I hope you have a great day!
Today I put on make up. I covered my face because I thought it would get better. I covered up the blemishes on my face just like I cover up my feelings. I hid up my red checks just like I hide myself. I thought I would feel better but I didn’t. The harsh truth looked back at me and said; ‘who is this?’. I couldn’t recognize myself with the black long lashes, overdrawn lips and painted cheekbones.
I’m left with a big question mark because I can’t understand how I have made myself believe that I’m less beautiful. We hide the imperfect human being God created us to be. But somehow we all aim to be perfect.
Today was not a good day and even though I want to post an uplifting image, I can’t hide what my heart is feeling. I want to scream and cry at the same time and shake those around me and ask them how they can’t see that I’m hurting. I want to cry my eyes out because I’m broken inside.
1. See the sunrise
How beautiful isn’t it to wake up before everyone else and enjoy the perfect painted picture God creates every morning. It’s a sight I never can get enough of.
2. Enjoy the early morning silence
Whilst sipping your morning coffee or tee listening to nothing else than complete silence around you. A gift we often take for granted.
3. Plan your day
When you wake up early you get the chance to plan out every single hour of the day ahead of you.
Maybe not the most motivating way to get out of bed but just imaging how satisfied you’ll feel after a good morning routine. Start of with some stretching and maybe some light cardio, before you know it you’ll be jumping out of bed to get ahead.
5. Sleep more
The last and maybe the best reason to get up early is that you’ll be tired in the evening which will force you to go to bed early.
Started my Monday morning off with shuffling snow for an hour. It’s literally been snowing since Friday. At least I can finally see my car again and hopefully also make a successful trip to the supermarket to buy food. I always get so shaky when I have to drive when it’s snowing and icy on the road. Nothing that makes me feel more unease when I don’t have full control over a situation.
I’m debating on whether I should film a video soon because I do miss filming, editing and all that YouTuber stuff. Other then that I still have to check off my ‘to-do’ list. Still some cleaning and house keeping to do, but I don’t mind. It’s actually rather fun when it’s your own home and you see the results.
I made a little promise to myself yesterday when I started writing again that I would try to post 1 blog post a day. So far so good. I forgot how much fun it is just to take out the camera and take some snapshots.
Or browse on we heart it just to get the perfect collage. Didn’t know which theme I should go for, but since everything is so grey and white now a days I thought it would be great to have some color refill.
Now I’m going to start checking of my ‘to-do list’. Since I always write down more than the days has hours I will get on with it.
My home office today. I always get the couch or the bed, but I don’t mind. At least I get to update you once in a while. I know I have been neglecting to write. I don’t know where to start. Should I tell you the whole story or only put to words the ‘perfect’ picture? It’s easy to hide behind a screen, for me and for you. I still have the control but if I share it all, you will get it. You will get the control to judge me, and I don’t know if I’m ready for that.
It’s been snowing the last couple of days just when I thought winter was over. We had a green holiday but I guess winter comes every year. At least I have three days off now so I will be enjoying the snow from inside.
Today was an all day trip from 1 o’clock till 9 which can confirm that I’m about to fall asleep any minute. My mother, uncle and his girlfriend and I all drove to Stanberger sea which approximate is a 45 minute drive. Like yesterday the weather didn’t agree with us and the sun hardly showed up. Optimistically as I am I went in a long dress with ballerinas. It’s save to say that my feet still are cold even now under my blanket. We stopped at a ‘Beergarten’ on the way home where I got to taste Mr. Hugo – my drink after 3 months. It wasn’t worth it but it did taste good.
We ended the day with dinner at a restaurant in Peiting where I had my favorite – Käsespätzle. Now we’re all back home and waiting for tomorrow, my early birthday celebration.
Oh, and sorry for the lack of photos. I do take my camera everywhere but today I forgot my memory card. It was waiting on me in my computer when I got home. It will be remembered tomorrow though.