A 100 days ago I gave birth to a healthy baby girl. 4920 grams and 50 cm of pure love wrapped into one tiny human being. 3 months later I can see her smiling back at me when I look at her and all of my worries fade away. The world stops for minute and it’s just us. Then the noise from the outside world start tumbling in again but that smile remains. And after 9 long months she is finally kicking her feet of joy and excitement. There is nothing more beautiful and precious than to see your children grow up right beside you. And losing either one of them would be my greatest fear.
Tomorrow will be my first day back at work since going out on maternity leave 3 weeks before my baby girl came. My head is totally ready for it but my heart is still yearning to be with my child. I’m overwhelmed with emotions and don’t really know what to focus on. But I know it will be good for me, and I’m ready to take the leap.
The first Saturday in September, 3 months after giving birth, I’m back at it, and I’m ready.
Evening has arrived and it’s soon time for me to welcome a good nights sleep. Luckily baby is feed, changed and asleep. And I can finally say, with a big smile one my face, that we had our first outing today. I have been so nervous about going out alone but it has been a real accomplishment getting over that fear. Even though it might not seem as a big deal to some, for me this was something that made me a bit anxious. Whether it was baby suddenly starting to cry when we were out or the fact that I didn’t know if I should carry the stroller down the three steps we have in front of the house first. Well, this and more where thoughts that went through my head before we finally, after so many days inside, got out. Hopefully, tomorrow will be as eventful as today.
Love – Time – Death
“We long for love, we wish we had more time, and we fear death.”
A universal connection we all share. And this relevant subject can touche anyone. Behind the movie is a sad and emotional story. But I do not want to talk about the storyline of the film, but rather what it represents and what it can teach us.
We have all lost something in our life. A loved one, a friend or maybe ourself. It’s a natural part of life but most of us would rather not speak about that vital part of life. It’s scary. And we cannot go around every day thinking that this might be our last day, but we should be more aware that it can be. Life is not fair. Some people live to see hundred years and others don’t even pass the age of six. Some die because of a disease and others of natural causes.
We don’t give life and we don’t take it, we only live it. It’s cruel and unfair this journey of life. And when it ends those who are left are the once who are hurting.
So try and find beauty in meaningful moments in a bad circumstance.