Maybe you’re drifting apart for a reason. Those missed calls or dinners where no one ever showed up or bothered to let you know they’re not coming. Maybe it’s for a reason. It’s part of a bigger picture – one that you might not understand right now. Your paths are not the same. You grow up and sometimes you grow apart from the people you once used to be. Even though it saddens your heart to know the truth, you know that the people you’re leaving behind are not good for your future.
Days, weeks and even months go by without a call or text. And you start to wonder if you ever meant anything to these people or were you just a moment in time for them. You find yourself always being the one on the other end, reaching out for contact but they hardly ever seem to find the time for you. And you release it’s a dead end.
As we grow older we often forget the dreams we had as little children. Dreams that never were too big for your imagination. But as you grow up you see the world for what it truly is. And you finally understand why Peter Pan never wanted to grow up. You start living a life you never saw yourself having. And those dreams once dreamed become a faded memory. But don’t forget them because they are here to make us feel invisible.
My greatest dream may be to love the love of my life till the day I die. And letting the world remember us by attaching a lock to a love bridge with our initials on it. Maybe we’ll even live in London. Have a picnic with our children in Hyde Park. Or watch the sunrise at the beach together.
And even though I’m not the most spontaneous person, I would love to buy a random ticket for a flight or throw a dart at a map and travel to that destination. Maybe even learn the language of that country fluently. And when I don’t spend all my money on traveling I would go on a shopping spree without a budge, or better yet have my own clothing line.
Right now it may seem impossible but hold on to the dreams you once dreamed.
This weekend was one of the better ones in a long, long time. It all started on Friday evning when one of my best friends came over and we just sat outside with a bottle of wine and a lot of chatching up to do. I was suppost to cut my friends hair as well that evning, but because he came after we’de opened the second bottle we discided to drop it. Who knows how that could have turned out…?
After a lot of talking and simple laughing at the littlest things we made our way up to join some other friends where the evning countinued late into dark. Therefor Saturday was turned into a sleep-in day to re-inforce my strength for my first BBQ this year at my friends house. I stayed over at her’s that night and mostly for the rest of Sunday. We found eachother back at my house in the evning again where we went out for a movie night with some friends.
I stayed out way to late and got less than 5h of sleep, but I can only blame myself. On the top of everything I had my first of three exam days today. But I’ll give you those details later.
Now I’ve got to catch up on some sleep..