Sabr, sabr, and more sabr

Patience. Such a sweet word which we all want more of. When we don’t receive the things we’ve wanted for the longest time or when things don’t go our way, we forget that God tests us with sabr.

Patience is bitter but sweet because when we receive our greatest wish we feel so satisfied. We know that all the time waiting was worth it, because God has given us an even greater gift than what we could imagine.

Patience is hard because we’re looking forward to something that we feel we need or are suppost to get but when we don’t, we always start asking why. Imagine if we’d get everything we wished for right at the moment we asked for it. We would stop being appreciative, even more so than we already are today.

We might even wish for something that isn’t good for us and never will be. We might want something that will never reach us even if it was right in front of us. We have to keep our trust and belief in God. He has it all planed out in the greatest way and He knows what’s good for you and what isn’t.


Keep on praying and never, ever lose hope in God. 



Always a mother first

A sick little child is fast asleep and I’m hoping and praying that my little boy will get well soon. Tiny bodies like his shouldn’t have to go through being sick three times in less than two months. Especially when his illness lasts a week or more.

All three of us have caught some sort of cold, one worse than the last. I even took a late night drive to the grocery store to buy lemons and ginger. If only I could be sick for him, but I know it doesn’t work like that.

But I’ll always be a mother first no matter job I have or how old I get. Very reassuring in a way but with a great deal of responsibility. There’s nothing more comforting than to know that I can hold my baby boy and he’ll feel safe right in my arms.


Don’t take advice from the fallen one

The deep, dark thoughts suddenly surface again.
And I wonder if it’s shaytan whispering in my ear repeatedly.
Or is this from my own self?
I feel bruised and beaten on the inside.
Why do I self destructed every good thing in my life?
But just know that Shaytan doesn’t attack the lost ones.
Their case is done.
He sits on the straight path to mislead the believers.
So don’t give up dear one.
The end is near and so is your reward, in sha Allah.




30 questions & answers

  1. What was the first though you had when you looked in the mirror this morning? Wow, my hair is fluffy. I loved it when it’s a lot of volume, washed and cleaned from the night before.
  2. Who did you kiss last? My son. Can’t resist those round checks.
  3. What’s your favorite quote? This too shall pass.’
  4. Favorite planet? Earth.
  5. Who’s the 4th person on your missed called list? My dad.img_6076-e1516535969742.jpg
  6. What’s your ring tone? The unoriginal iPhone ringtone.
  7. What are you wearing? Still in my PJs.
  8. Do you put yourself in a box? Maybe sometimes.
  9. What brand are your shoes? Bianco.
  10. What’s best – a dark or a bright room? Bright. I need a lot of light. Especially now when it’s winter and the days are so short.
  11.  Is the glas half full or half empty? I like to believe it’s half full, but somehow I always say half empty.
  12. If you’re alone in a room with two beds, which bed do you choose? Depends on which one I’m drawn to first.
  13. What did you do around midnight last night? Fall asleep.
  14. What does it say in your last message inbox? ‘Leaving now :)^^’img_6077
  15. Who is the last person you saw today? My son before I put him down for a nap.
  16. What word do you use over and over? ‘Serr!?’ Which is equal to ‘really!?’
  17. Last movie you watched? ‘‘A bad moms Christmas’. Don’t judge, I didn’t find anything else. bad moms
  18. What’s the last hairy thing yo touched? My hair.
  19. Your last browser history? Ikea, looking for child safety things.Skjermbilde 2018-01-21 kl. 12.45.24
  20. How many film rolls do you have laying around? None. Thank God for digital photos.
  21. Your favorite age so far? Maybe 21 or 18, when I just got my licenses and felt as free as a little bird.
  22. Who’s your worst enemy? Myself.
  23. What’s on your background on your computer? My son.
  24. What’s the first thing you said to someone today? Something like ‘why are you not asleep yet’.
  25. Choose between a million dollars or the ability to fly? Ability to fly. Just imagine how fast I would get to places.
  26. Do you like someone? Yes.
  27. Last song you listened to? Maher Zain – The Chosen Oneskjermbilde-2018-01-21-kl-12-46-32-e1516535648723.png
  28. If the last person you didn’t know got mad and angry at you, what would you do? Walk away.
  29. What car do you drive? Volkswagen Polo 2003
  30. What’s the closest thing to your left foot right now? A chair.

A fun little exercise for a lazy Sunday. Enjoy the rest of your day.



My pride and joy

My baby boy
My pride and joy
How could I ever imagine a life without you
If I could I would protect you from any harm that could affect you

Your smile lights up my day
Even bad days you get me through
My light, my sunshine

What would I do without you
I could never imagine a life without you now
And I pray that I can get a life long with you by my side



Reminder to all reverts out there

Don’t be too hard on yourself. Sometimes it can be hard to see how far you’ve come when everyone around you is pointing out your mistakes.

Remember the time you didn’t wear the hijab. The time when you still ate pork or drank a glass of alcohol. The time before Islam. Before you change you’re life.

I used to read a lot of forums on fb and at first it was fine but soon it began to drag me down. Every notification made me question my faith and there were times I wanted to cry because I felt like I was a bad muslim. That my afford wasn’t enough.

But do your best and that will be enough. Be proud of yourself! Be proud of how far you’ve come and pray that Allah will help you become the best muslim you can be. We are all on our own journey and for some it’s easy and for others it takes longer.

Find a balance and don’t lose yourself. Your faith should make you stronger and lift you up.



Last day of 2017 – recap

15 minutes before midnight and here I am sitting on the couch writing a recap post. 2017 has been a wild, chill, amazing, heartwarming, difficult and hard – and once again I’m taking a look back at the past year.

Last Day of 2016 – I ended and started the year with my mum, highly pregnant, walking around trying to catch the fireworks at 12. It was a lot like today, cloudy and roads covered in snow. We actually didn’t find a good spot to look at the fireworks, but we did see some. And after a short, but tiring walk I made my way home to my bed.

15th of January – The most amazing, heartwarming, incredible day of my life, and of 2017. I gave birth to my baby boy. He’s soon turning 1, and I can’t believe how I found the strength to push him out without any medication or drugs. This was hands down my proudest moment & the highlight of my year!
Surprise Birthday Party for 2 – Surprised my mum at home with a clean house and her favorite cake. I stayed and celebrated her belated birthday whilst we ate carrot cake and she opened presents.
Summer 2017 – First summer i tried wearing the hijab, and it was a success! Not as hard as I thought it would be. Abayas became my new best friend and light chiffon scarfs as well.
22nd Birthday – I gave birth at 21, but 7 months later I turned 22. If you haven’t seen it you can watch my «22 things I’ve learned the last 22 years».
2 Year Anniversary – This day lies close to my heart because it’s the day I said my shahada. Nervous and anxious, but the best decision I have made.
Roadtrip to Gothenburg – I was eager to travel the whole year, and finally at the last end of November we decided to take a roadtrip – my mum, my son and I. We had a wonderful stay in Gothenburg, spending most of our time at Liseberg, Universum and in the car, of course.
First day back at work – After 46 weeks at home I had to say goodbye to my baby boy, at least for a couple of hours, and go back to work. After a couple of days and haircuts, I was back into the old routines.
Dinner with the fam – 23rd of December, a day before Christmas Eve here in Scandinavia, we all meet up at my brothers apartment and had a wonderful homemade buffet and played games long over midnight.
Last day of 2017 – Today I continued packing for tomorrow, and also meet up with my mum yet again for a New Years Eve dinner with my son. Now 1 year later he could join us and it was a full circle experience.

A new year is on it’s way, and this year we get 366 days of creating and writing our story!