Leaving you behind will be one of the hardest things I’ll have to do. You are growing up and I wish I could go back and experience it all again. Even the long, sleepless nights. The laughter and heartbreak. It’s going too fast and soon it’s gone. I can’t even remember the little things. Your first smile or the first time you laughed. This time last year I had you so close, our hearts beating next to each other. Can we go back together, just you and I? Let’s live it again, even the hard times. I wouldn’t want it any other way because it was you. It was always you.
Momma loves you.
Maybe you’re drifting apart for a reason. Those missed calls or dinners where no one ever showed up or bothered to let you know they’re not coming. Maybe it’s for a reason. It’s part of a bigger picture – one that you might not understand right now. Your paths are not the same. You grow up and sometimes you grow apart from the people you once used to be. Even though it saddens your heart to know the truth, you know that the people you’re leaving behind are not good for your future.
Days, weeks and even months go by without a call or text. And you start to wonder if you ever meant anything to these people or were you just a moment in time for them. You find yourself always being the one on the other end, reaching out for contact but they hardly ever seem to find the time for you. And you release it’s a dead end.
Is this what I’ve been waiting for? My birthday. All my life I’ve waited for this day, the day I turn 18. I remember when I was 13 years and couldn’t wait to grow up and become an adult. Just to know all the things you can do, being your own boss. But the only thing fun about growing up is.. well, you fill out the blank because I don’t know yet. But I do know that I’ve learned a lot in these 18 years of my lifetime and I’ve been so blessed having a wonderful family who cares more than anything and I love them to death. And all my friends who’ve been there through thick and thin with me, I couldn’t have made it without you. So thank you to all who has every given me a reason to live, laugh and love. You keep me going and I hope for another good 18 years to come and more!