Leaving you behind will be one of the hardest things I’ll have to do. You are growing up and I wish I could go back and experience it all again. Even the long, sleepless nights. The laughter and heartbreak. It’s going too fast and soon it’s gone. I can’t even remember the little things. Your first smile or the first time you laughed. This time last year I had you so close, our hearts beating next to each other. Can we go back together, just you and I? Let’s live it again, even the hard times. I wouldn’t want it any other way because it was you. It was always you.
Momma loves you.
I can’t even feel the pain because I’ve buried it so far down
Every inch of my being is torn and I want to scream out crying.
Feeling like a disappointment to everyone around me.
Silently crying because I don’t want anyone to hear me.
With the door unlocked because I want someone to find me.
Being happy and miserable at the same time.
A year will feel like a month
A month will feel like a week
A week will feel like a day
A day will feel like an hour
An hour will feel like a minute
And a minute will feel like a second
She holds him tight at night
Hoping his soul won’t slip away
Wishing for an eternity
Praying they will last forever
Together till their last breath
Striving for success
Paradise where they’ll rest
Truly this is her deepest wish
My heart only feels peace when I lay my head down towards You
I can’t stop even if I wanted too
Because right here and now I’m safe
Before I raise up again and ask for Your forgiveness
Even though I know I can never say enough
Know that everything I do, I do for You
It was early Wednesday morning. The sun had made its way out behind the trees far away at the east. I awaited nervously for the two lines to appear. Anticipation was rising and even though I knew, I waited for five minutes.
I watched my reflection in the mirror and couldn’t help but to smile back. An exiting time was ahead. There we were, two instead of just one. I went back to bed wondering who you would become.
Now one year later I can finally hear you laugh, see you smile and hold you close. Knowing now that my life was never complete without you here.
The world tells you to be yourself
but when you do they turn their back on you.
Everyone wants to be original but no one dares to stand out.
So stop defining yourself through the worlds eyes.
Look in the mirror. Your reflection should represent yourself.
Don’t dress up for admiration or seek applause for you good actions.
The world doesn’t have the right to tell you who you should be, neither judge you or define you.
I made a little promise to myself yesterday when I started writing again that I would try to post 1 blog post a day. So far so good. I forgot how much fun it is just to take out the camera and take some snapshots.
Or browse on we heart it just to get the perfect collage. Didn’t know which theme I should go for, but since everything is so grey and white now a days I thought it would be great to have some color refill.
Now I’m going to start checking of my ‘to-do list’. Since I always write down more than the days has hours I will get on with it.