I can’t even feel the pain because I’ve buried it so far down
Every inch of my being is torn and I want to scream out crying.
Feeling like a disappointment to everyone around me.
Silently crying because I don’t want anyone to hear me.
With the door unlocked because I want someone to find me.
Being happy and miserable at the same time.
I can’t believe it’s been half a year
Time flied by like a night in disguise
One second ago I held you close
Two little feet, ten little toes
First a smile, then a laugh
Now six months later you’re rolling around
Finding your hands to your toys
Soon you’ll be able to walk and talk
While you’re growing up, we’re growing old
Stop time a little so we can be with you even more
There is no rush, so I’ll stop searching for the next milestone
And enjoy the time with our firstborn child
She holds him tight at night
Hoping his soul won’t slip away
Wishing for an eternity
Praying they will last forever
Together till their last breath
Striving for success
Paradise where they’ll rest
Truly this is her deepest wish
It was early Wednesday morning. The sun had made its way out behind the trees far away at the east. I awaited nervously for the two lines to appear. Anticipation was rising and even though I knew, I waited for five minutes.
I watched my reflection in the mirror and couldn’t help but to smile back. An exiting time was ahead. There we were, two instead of just one. I went back to bed wondering who you would become.
Now one year later I can finally hear you laugh, see you smile and hold you close. Knowing now that my life was never complete without you here.
The world tells you to be yourself
but when you do they turn their back on you.
Everyone wants to be original but no one dares to stand out.
So stop defining yourself through the worlds eyes.
Look in the mirror. Your reflection should represent yourself.
Don’t dress up for admiration or seek applause for you good actions.
The world doesn’t have the right to tell you who you should be, neither judge you or define you.
I made a little promise to myself yesterday when I started writing again that I would try to post 1 blog post a day. So far so good. I forgot how much fun it is just to take out the camera and take some snapshots.
Or browse on we heart it just to get the perfect collage. Didn’t know which theme I should go for, but since everything is so grey and white now a days I thought it would be great to have some color refill.
Now I’m going to start checking of my ‘to-do list’. Since I always write down more than the days has hours I will get on with it.