Life

Autumn flowers light up my day

The weekend is upon us and even though I’ve had Friday feeling since Tuesday, I’m definitely going to enjoy this weekend. Tomorrow I’ll have a couple of hours to myself which hopefully I’ll be able to enjoy to the fullest. Hair appointment, coffee, running errands – well, running is the last thing I want to do on my day ‘off’.

Fresh flowers for the weekend is starting to become a priority even though I’ve been so lucky to get the last couple of flowers from my wonderful and loving mum. It does something with your mood when you wake up and see beautiful fresh colors shine throughout your living room.



My sons cousin also has his first birthday tomorrow so I have to get something for him. Even though I have no idea what that’s going to be.. I guess I have to brainstorm a little. And tomorrow evening we’ll be visiting him and his family.

Have a great weekend, hope it treats you well!

Elizabeth

Little things

They were better together

She holds him tight at night
Hoping his soul won’t slip away

Wishing for an eternity
Praying they will last forever
Together till their last breath

Striving for success
Paradise where they’ll rest
Truly this is her deepest wish

Elizabeth

Life

At last

It seems as if it was just yesterday we were in the hospital waiting for your arrival. Two days later we were on our way home again. Now you’re seven days old and time has flown by just as I suspected. Please don’t grow up so fast! Slow down time so that I can enjoy every single moment with you.

Meeting you gave me a completely new perspective on life. And you gave me a complete meaning of the word love. Unconditional love. A bond so unbelievable strong, just between the two of us. And I hope I get to spend an infinitude together with you. I love you.

Elizabeth

Life

Highlights of 2014

Oh, wow.. 2014.

What a year. How time flies by. I found an old post from 2013 where I wrote my new years resolutions and they sounded something like this:

  • Be the best version of myself
  • Trust my life with God
  • Find love

Lets take a trip down memory land and look at what has happened the last year. Maybe some of my new years resolutions came true..

The year 2014

Berlin – I started my year in Berlin. Correctly, flying from America to Paris and then Berlin. Spending my last days off with shopping and eating good food before heading back home for work.

The love of my life – I told myself that I would find the love of my life again, that the one who broke my heart would be gone and forgotten at the end of 2014. April the 13th that plan went down with all my morals. I knew I was still in love with him but I was trying so hard to forget him and all our memories. And meeting him that night just made us make more memories. I can´t regret opening my heart to him again because I fell in love with him more then I ever thought was possible. My first and only love of my life.

Wedding – Not my real wedding but I had the pleasure of having on two amazing wedding dresses and getting my bridal hair done and walking on a catwalk to promote a bridal store and the salon I work at. A stressful, nerve-racking and fun day!

Miley Cyrus concert – The first ´real` concert I went to was the Bangerz concert the 28th of April. With three of my close friends we made our way to the concert starting of by waiting in line for an hour or two and drowning as many beers as possible before the police would catch us. A fun & crazy concert, just like Miley.

Best friends good bye – 13th of July I had to say good bye to my best friend. She was on her way to explore the world, or at least Spain the coming year working as an au pair. There is nothing beautiful about good byes and I could only look forward to the day where I got to see her again.

Summer vacation – I worked the entire summer and had a well deserved vacation at the end of August. My mum and I flew to Germany to stay with my Oma for a week, and then we made our way to Italy. After a good week there we drove back to Germany for another three days before we took the flight home again. A fun and different holiday, seeing lots of new places and having one last good memory with my Oma.

Losing Oma – On Monday the 27th of October I was in my car when I got a text message from my mum. That weekend I knew it was getting worse for Oma and on Monday morning she passed away quietly and peacefully in her bed while sleeping. She was such an amazing and inspiring person and I wish I had more time to spend with her.


This year has had it´s ups and downs. It wasn’t a great year but neither a bad one. I have learned, loved and lost. Trying to figure out my life and who I want to be, and I strongly believe that 2015 is going to be that wonderful year where I do all of that. I´ll figure out who I am and what road my life will take.

Even if I love and lose again, I will have learned. 

Elizabeth

Life

When we love, we love a lot

Today was a mess, at least emotionally it was. I hardly write anything personal but I’ve felt so disconnected the last couple of days and only wrote the necessary. My head full with unanswered questions and my heart still holding on to the little bit of hope I have left. I’m not going to get into details but just writing that little phrase there helped. Talking helps, but nobody asks so there’s no one to tell my worries to. I write, but who reads my journals? That’s why it’s all just a mess.

I don’t want to complain because I’m having an amazing holiday and I’m so glad time stands a little bit more still here. Even now I still got 2 weeks left. But the thing that had me wanting to fly home right this second is fading and I’m scared. I’m scared I’ll come home to emptiness with a broken heart. I guess that’s what happens when you open your heart and you’re blinded by how much control another person has for your feelings. I could blame myself, that I dove in way too fast again. And all I’m left with now is checking my phone every five minutes.

When we love we love a lot. And even when the love is fading we hold on to the minimal love that is left and hope that our feelings will renew.

How much can you change for another person before losing yourself?

Elizabeth