I don’t like to admit it but I feel lonely. A feeling that has been hovering over me for the last couple of days. Suddenly it just hit me that I don’t have the same network around me as before. I don’t have my high school friends near by nor my colleagues. Even though I can always reach out and usually get a comforting hand, it’s not the same as it used to be. I miss the old days. The days where I could walk up to my best friends house and stay there for as long as I needed. The days where I didn’t feel alone because I had a workplace to come to every day. It’s an empty place around me right now and I’m not sure how to fix it.
Started my Monday morning off with shuffling snow for an hour. It’s literally been snowing since Friday. At least I can finally see my car again and hopefully also make a successful trip to the supermarket to buy food. I always get so shaky when I have to drive when it’s snowing and icy on the road. Nothing that makes me feel more unease when I don’t have full control over a situation.
I’m debating on whether I should film a video soon because I do miss filming, editing and all that YouTuber stuff. Other then that I still have to check off my ‘to-do’ list. Still some cleaning and house keeping to do, but I don’t mind. It’s actually rather fun when it’s your own home and you see the results.