Life

Pregnancy & Body Image

You’re suppose to feel this overwhelming sense of joy when you’re pregnant. And anything else would just be unusual.

Well, it’s not. Your body goes through A LOT of changes in only 9 months. And even though you might be the only one knowing it for the first months, you’ll rapidly start to grow and show. And you can’t make your body stop getting bigger. You can exercise and eat as healthy as one only can with daily cravings, but in the end, you’ll get big.

You’ll hear comments like; “You’ve gotten so big. Are you sure there aren’t two in there”. It’s frustrating cause it’s like no one knows what you’re actually going through. And who knows if you’ll ever get back to the size you were before. The invisible pressure is definitely there.

Even as this is my second child I’m much bigger than what I was with my first. I keep telling myself that I’ll get back to my ‘normal’ self and this in it self is a miracle. But as much as it is a miracle, and I am truly grateful to be a mother again, I can’t help to feel like I’m not myself.

I don’t feel sexy in my body, I don’t feel as confident. Most of the time I feel bloated and like I have to pee every hour. I’ll never have my abs back to normal and my bellybutton will most likely not go back to it’s normal self. And I feel guilty for feeling this way. Because my body is getting bigger and I don’t like looking at myself in the mirror, even though I’m creating a human being inside of me.


Elizabeth

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Sabr, sabr, and more sabr

Patience. Such a sweet word which we all want more of. When we don’t receive the things we’ve wanted for the longest time or when things don’t go our way, we forget that God tests us with sabr.

Patience is bitter but sweet because when we receive our greatest wish we feel so satisfied. We know that all the time waiting was worth it, because God has given us an even greater gift than what we could imagine.

Patience is hard because we’re looking forward to something that we feel we need or are suppost to get but when we don’t, we always start asking why. Imagine if we’d get everything we wished for right at the moment we asked for it. We would stop being appreciative, even more so than we already are today.

We might even wish for something that isn’t good for us and never will be. We might want something that will never reach us even if it was right in front of us. We have to keep our trust and belief in God. He has it all planed out in the greatest way and He knows what’s good for you and what isn’t.

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Keep on praying and never, ever lose hope in God. 

Elizabeth

Little things

Don’t take advice from the fallen one

The deep, dark thoughts suddenly surface again.
And I wonder if it’s shaytan whispering in my ear repeatedly.
Or is this from my own self?
I feel bruised and beaten on the inside.
Why do I self destructed every good thing in my life?
But just know that Shaytan doesn’t attack the lost ones.
Their case is done.
He sits on the straight path to mislead the believers.
So don’t give up dear one.
The end is near and so is your reward, in sha Allah.

 


Elizabeth

Life

30 questions & answers

  1. What was the first though you had when you looked in the mirror this morning? Wow, my hair is fluffy. I loved it when it’s a lot of volume, washed and cleaned from the night before.
  2. Who did you kiss last? My son. Can’t resist those round checks.
  3. What’s your favorite quote? This too shall pass.’
  4. Favorite planet? Earth.
  5. Who’s the 4th person on your missed called list? My dad.img_6076-e1516535969742.jpg
  6. What’s your ring tone? The unoriginal iPhone ringtone.
  7. What are you wearing? Still in my PJs.
  8. Do you put yourself in a box? Maybe sometimes.
  9. What brand are your shoes? Bianco.
  10. What’s best – a dark or a bright room? Bright. I need a lot of light. Especially now when it’s winter and the days are so short.
  11.  Is the glas half full or half empty? I like to believe it’s half full, but somehow I always say half empty.
  12. If you’re alone in a room with two beds, which bed do you choose? Depends on which one I’m drawn to first.
  13. What did you do around midnight last night? Fall asleep.
  14. What does it say in your last message inbox? ‘Leaving now :)^^’img_6077
  15. Who is the last person you saw today? My son before I put him down for a nap.
  16. What word do you use over and over? ‘Serr!?’ Which is equal to ‘really!?’
  17. Last movie you watched? ‘‘A bad moms Christmas’. Don’t judge, I didn’t find anything else. bad moms
  18. What’s the last hairy thing yo touched? My hair.
  19. Your last browser history? Ikea, looking for child safety things.Skjermbilde 2018-01-21 kl. 12.45.24
  20. How many film rolls do you have laying around? None. Thank God for digital photos.
  21. Your favorite age so far? Maybe 21 or 18, when I just got my licenses and felt as free as a little bird.
  22. Who’s your worst enemy? Myself.
  23. What’s on your background on your computer? My son.
  24. What’s the first thing you said to someone today? Something like ‘why are you not asleep yet’.
  25. Choose between a million dollars or the ability to fly? Ability to fly. Just imagine how fast I would get to places.
  26. Do you like someone? Yes.
  27. Last song you listened to? Maher Zain – The Chosen Oneskjermbilde-2018-01-21-kl-12-46-32-e1516535648723.png
  28. If the last person you didn’t know got mad and angry at you, what would you do? Walk away.
  29. What car do you drive? Volkswagen Polo 2003
  30. What’s the closest thing to your left foot right now? A chair.

A fun little exercise for a lazy Sunday. Enjoy the rest of your day.

Elizabeth

Little things

My pride and joy

My baby boy
My pride and joy
How could I ever imagine a life without you
If I could I would protect you from any harm that could affect you

Your smile lights up my day
Even bad days you get me through
My light, my sunshine

What would I do without you
I could never imagine a life without you now
And I pray that I can get a life long with you by my side

Elizabeth

Life

Reminder to all reverts out there

Don’t be too hard on yourself. Sometimes it can be hard to see how far you’ve come when everyone around you is pointing out your mistakes.

Remember the time you didn’t wear the hijab. The time when you still ate pork or drank a glass of alcohol. The time before Islam. Before you change you’re life.

I used to read a lot of forums on fb and at first it was fine but soon it began to drag me down. Every notification made me question my faith and there were times I wanted to cry because I felt like I was a bad muslim. That my afford wasn’t enough.

But do your best and that will be enough. Be proud of yourself! Be proud of how far you’ve come and pray that Allah will help you become the best muslim you can be. We are all on our own journey and for some it’s easy and for others it takes longer.

Find a balance and don’t lose yourself. Your faith should make you stronger and lift you up.

Elizabeth