Always a mother first

A sick little child is fast asleep and I’m hoping and praying that my little boy will get well soon. Tiny bodies like his shouldn’t have to go through being sick three times in less than two months. Especially when his illness lasts a week or more.

All three of us have caught some sort of cold, one worse than the last. I even took a late night drive to the grocery store to buy lemons and ginger. If only I could be sick for him, but I know it doesn’t work like that.

But I’ll always be a mother first no matter job I have or how old I get. Very reassuring in a way but with a great deal of responsibility. There’s nothing more comforting than to know that I can hold my baby boy and he’ll feel safe right in my arms.



Black Panther Date Night

I’ve been dreading this – sitting in front of the keyboard and try to type something together. To be honest, I haven’t felt inspired even though I’ve been thinking about writing, every – single – day. I’m craving some new inspiration & motivations on how I can make this blog even better. Any ideas? Please leave a comment below.

Tonight we had our first date night after almost two years (!). A date alone that is, with a babysitter at home, aka my mum, watching our son. We drove 10 minutes to our local cinema and watched Black Panther. I’m usually not enthusiastic about marvel movies, but with this one I just got a good feeling. I’ve also heard that it was received very well by other social media influencers.

So if you’re into action, si-fi and a little drama, you should definitely go see this one. Here’s my outfit of the night.


30 questions & answers

  1. What was the first though you had when you looked in the mirror this morning? Wow, my hair is fluffy. I loved it when it’s a lot of volume, washed and cleaned from the night before.
  2. Who did you kiss last? My son. Can’t resist those round checks.
  3. What’s your favorite quote? This too shall pass.’
  4. Favorite planet? Earth.
  5. Who’s the 4th person on your missed called list? My dad.img_6076-e1516535969742.jpg
  6. What’s your ring tone? The unoriginal iPhone ringtone.
  7. What are you wearing? Still in my PJs.
  8. Do you put yourself in a box? Maybe sometimes.
  9. What brand are your shoes? Bianco.
  10. What’s best – a dark or a bright room? Bright. I need a lot of light. Especially now when it’s winter and the days are so short.
  11.  Is the glas half full or half empty? I like to believe it’s half full, but somehow I always say half empty.
  12. If you’re alone in a room with two beds, which bed do you choose? Depends on which one I’m drawn to first.
  13. What did you do around midnight last night? Fall asleep.
  14. What does it say in your last message inbox? ‘Leaving now :)^^’img_6077
  15. Who is the last person you saw today? My son before I put him down for a nap.
  16. What word do you use over and over? ‘Serr!?’ Which is equal to ‘really!?’
  17. Last movie you watched? ‘‘A bad moms Christmas’. Don’t judge, I didn’t find anything else. bad moms
  18. What’s the last hairy thing yo touched? My hair.
  19. Your last browser history? Ikea, looking for child safety things.Skjermbilde 2018-01-21 kl. 12.45.24
  20. How many film rolls do you have laying around? None. Thank God for digital photos.
  21. Your favorite age so far? Maybe 21 or 18, when I just got my licenses and felt as free as a little bird.
  22. Who’s your worst enemy? Myself.
  23. What’s on your background on your computer? My son.
  24. What’s the first thing you said to someone today? Something like ‘why are you not asleep yet’.
  25. Choose between a million dollars or the ability to fly? Ability to fly. Just imagine how fast I would get to places.
  26. Do you like someone? Yes.
  27. Last song you listened to? Maher Zain – The Chosen Oneskjermbilde-2018-01-21-kl-12-46-32-e1516535648723.png
  28. If the last person you didn’t know got mad and angry at you, what would you do? Walk away.
  29. What car do you drive? Volkswagen Polo 2003
  30. What’s the closest thing to your left foot right now? A chair.

A fun little exercise for a lazy Sunday. Enjoy the rest of your day.



I can only pray and hope for better days

Today I just had the worst start to the day. I woke up at 6.30 am thinking I would lay in bed a couple of minutes more and figure out what I should wear for work. A minute later I must have fallen asleep because I abruptly woke up at 8.40 am, 20 minutes before my call time to work. Bare in mind it takes me about 30 minutes to drive to work. Jumping out of the bed in panic when I finally realized how much I overslept. Stressed out trying to contact my work I made my way to the bathroom and only managed to comb through my hair and put on some new clothes.

To say it mildly, it was a stressful day. I arrived 15 minutes late but my customer was taken good care of, but I stayed 15 minutes late until my break. I’ve been home a couple of hours now and gathered myself, spent time with my family and finally made dinner so I could eat a proper meal. The last couple of hours I’ve also been working on tomorrows video which will be up at 2 pm on my YouTube channel. Next on my shopping list is a new camera since my old Nikon doesn’t want to start. Right now I’m filming on my iPhone and trust me, I know the quality is bad.

I can only pray and hope for better days.



Worst week in my life

Ok, maybe I’m exaggerating, but I’ve not had the best 48 hours. Everything went downhill since Wednesday night and now I’m sitting here on the living room floor with the worst headache since this afternoon.

I don’t want to keep on dragging this complain wagon any longer, and I will try to look at life from a more positive way.

Even though we don’t celebrate Christmas, I do want to give something back to my family, especially my mum. And since this is a time of year where people usually meet, I ended up buying some gifts for my family.
It was most natural for me to buy something hair related since I work at a salon. So both my brothers will receive a shampoo. My oldest brother will also get a 3D puzzle I thought was so cool, maybe even something I should have bought for myself. And my brother in between will get a sports t-shirt. I still have my parents but I’ve got them covered with something.
I’m off to bed hoping to sleep away this awful headache. I have to be up, ready and back at the salon by 9 am, so good night.



In desperate need of sleep

What was suppose to be a stressless evening turned out to be far from that. My own fault really, cause I always get so invested in projects I do and have zero patience with myself. I always wish that I can learn everything at once and it just works right away, but it usually never does.

Today I spent my hours from 8 pm till now in front of the computer. Actually two computers. Photoshop on one and YouTube on the other. I was determined to finish a new profile picture, channel art and a watermark.

I’m only 100% happy with the new channel art, the other two I still have to tweak and fix. Other than that I have a headache and I’m in desperate need of sleep. But I guarantee you, I’ll be laying in bed another hour before I fall asleep. At least that’s what happened last night.

Good night



300 days since..

I’ve just scrolled threw all of the videos I’ve taken this past year with my son. Trying to soak up every sent and smell from him as long as possible. Kissing him as soon as the opportunity arrives because I know that I have to go back to work, leaving him for X amount of hours every day. I don’t even want to think about it but I know that is the reality. I wish I could rewind and do it all over again. The light night feeds, the first smile and laugh, and even all the diaper changes. I wouldn’t mind it at all if it meant I could spend it with my first born child again.

Everyone says the time will go fast but it truly ran away from me when he turned 6 months. Until then I had some sort of grip on the time I had with him, but when he started being more mobil and communicating more, even the fact that he started eating solids made a huge difference. I didn’t have that closeness to him as I did before and now he’s walking everywhere, being so active and milk from me is no longer interesting.
I don’t know what the future holds or how our days will develop, and to be honest I’m sacred of the unknown. But to be truthful I was scared before I got my son too and it turned out pretty awesome.