I’ve been back at work the last two days after having (almost) a one year break. It’s safe to say I was quite nervous on Monday. Luckily I eased myself into it, only working a couple of hours a day and my first ‘customer’ was a college. Yesterday though, I had 2 paying customers. It felt like it went in slow motion, especially the first cut, but I managed to be done in time.
Today I have a day off and even though I feel like I do something ever single day, whether it’s laundry, cleaning or just look after my son, I can’t help to feel lazy. I don’t know why and I wish I didn’t beat myself up over it. It’s like everyone around me is so productive and I’m not even halfway to my goals.
We did manage to create a new office space so hopefully the creativity will just be flowing in this room. I really want to start sewing again reguallary and actually finish pieces I love and would want to wear. I have some huge ideas, I just don’t know how to get them down to paper and where to start. Fixing my serger to the right stitch lengths has also been a battle. I still have to figure out what the right settings are and how in the world I’m going to use it probably.
Wish me luck!
08.00 – My alarm goes off after hitting snooze way to many times – it’s inevitable, I have to get out of bed.
09.00 – Out the door 15 minutes before the usual time. Unfortunately it’s been snowing all night and my car is snowed in.
09.15 – I’ve finally finished shuffling enough snow to get me out of the drive way. Wheels start spinning and frustration keeps on building.
09.30 – I’m on the road, finally made it up the slippery road from the house, and now my windows are foggy. I can’t see anything, but I try gently to drive out on the road. I’m not going any more then 20 km/h in second gear up the hill before I decide it’s too dangerous.
09.35 – I stop by a bus stop and try fanatically to find a solution. My fan that usually get’s the car warm is broken and it doesn’t do anything. Fog is spreading all over to the back window and I’m stuck.
09.40 – I start crying, not seeing any solution. I’m less then 2 minutes from my house and I’m too afraid to drive back. I call my work and tell them I can’t come in today. After I hang up I get the worst panic attack and I feel as if I can’t breath.
10.15 – I’m back home and the car is parked. I’ve gathered myself but am still angry about the weather. I start shuffling the drive way in hopes to get out my frustration and don’t stop before the hour has passed.
I know it’s been two days since I’ve posted something, and that is just not ok. I could say that I’ve been busy with work which is true, but that doesn’t mean I can neglect you guys! I love to write and share, inspire and post, and I can only learn from this.
It’s Saturday and finally a day off for me. I don’t have anything special on the agenda today other then the usual cleaning that I try to do whenever I have a day off.
I actually get things done better when I see them written down and it makes me more motivated. I will check in with you later again today. I hope you have a great day!
Started my Monday morning off with shuffling snow for an hour. It’s literally been snowing since Friday. At least I can finally see my car again and hopefully also make a successful trip to the supermarket to buy food. I always get so shaky when I have to drive when it’s snowing and icy on the road. Nothing that makes me feel more unease when I don’t have full control over a situation.
I’m debating on whether I should film a video soon because I do miss filming, editing and all that YouTuber stuff. Other then that I still have to check off my ‘to-do’ list. Still some cleaning and house keeping to do, but I don’t mind. It’s actually rather fun when it’s your own home and you see the results.