I’ve just scrolled threw all of the videos I’ve taken this past year with my son. Trying to soak up every sent and smell from him as long as possible. Kissing him as soon as the opportunity arrives because I know that I have to go back to work, leaving him for X amount of hours every day. I don’t even want to think about it but I know that is the reality. I wish I could rewind and do it all over again. The light night feeds, the first smile and laugh, and even all the diaper changes. I wouldn’t mind it at all if it meant I could spend it with my first born child again.
A year will feel like a month
A month will feel like a week
A week will feel like a day
A day will feel like an hour
An hour will feel like a minute
And a minute will feel like a second
It was early Wednesday morning. The sun had made its way out behind the trees far away at the east. I awaited nervously for the two lines to appear. Anticipation was rising and even though I knew, I waited for five minutes.
I watched my reflection in the mirror and couldn’t help but to smile back. An exiting time was ahead. There we were, two instead of just one. I went back to bed wondering who you would become.
Now one year later I can finally hear you laugh, see you smile and hold you close. Knowing now that my life was never complete without you here.
At the end of every year I sit down and write down the big things that have happened the last year. It’s a great way to reflect and look back at the year I’ve had. Even though I haven’t shared a lot lately, there is a lot that has happened and I thought I’d write an overview of how my 2016 has been.
My home office today. I always get the couch or the bed, but I don’t mind. At least I get to update you once in a while. I know I have been neglecting to write. I don’t know where to start. Should I tell you the whole story or only put to words the ‘perfect’ picture? It’s easy to hide behind a screen, for me and for you. I still have the control but if I share it all, you will get it. You will get the control to judge me, and I don’t know if I’m ready for that.
It’s been snowing the last couple of days just when I thought winter was over. We had a green holiday but I guess winter comes every year. At least I have three days off now so I will be enjoying the snow from inside.
If you follow me tumblr @ mylifelizabeth, you know that my birthday was about a week ago. I turned 20, which is surreal for me. God willing I will have another 20 years ahead of me. I cannot start to write all the amazing opportunities I have had growing up, because let’s face it, I am and adult now. I cannot say I have anymore growing up to do in the form from being a child to an adult. Because when you are 20 you are an adult. Even when you turn 18 here you are an adult. But for me, turning 20, is even more so because you are no longer a teen. I’m heading towards 30.. ok, I just scared myself.
Moving on and not thinking about what age I’ve become, I can tell you what generous gifts I got. First of, those brownies on the left are home-made and absolutely delicious. Do you want the recipe? To the right are some roses I got from my mum, and after this birthday I think I will get a lot of flowers on my next birthdays. And to the last picture is the best gift I could ever wish for and never in a million years thought I would get. My family was so generous that they bought me a MacBook Air! It’s surreal even though I’m typing on it right now. I’ve fallen in love with all the Mac products and this is just another addition to my Apple family.
This year was the first year I worked on my birthday but we had a little celebration last Saturday and my family had more surprises up their selves than I thought. We ate good food, cake and I got more presents including flowers. Unfortunately my camera didn’t come to much use, but that is definitely something I want to work on.
Have a great evening.
Oh, wow.. 2014.
What a year. How time flies by. I found an old post from 2013 where I wrote my new years resolutions and they sounded something like this:
- Be the best version of myself
- Trust my life with God
- Find love
Lets take a trip down memory land and look at what has happened the last year. Maybe some of my new years resolutions came true..
The year 2014
Berlin – I started my year in Berlin. Correctly, flying from America to Paris and then Berlin. Spending my last days off with shopping and eating good food before heading back home for work.
The love of my life – I told myself that I would find the love of my life again, that the one who broke my heart would be gone and forgotten at the end of 2014. April the 13th that plan went down with all my morals. I knew I was still in love with him but I was trying so hard to forget him and all our memories. And meeting him that night just made us make more memories. I can´t regret opening my heart to him again because I fell in love with him more then I ever thought was possible. My first and only love of my life.
Wedding – Not my real wedding but I had the pleasure of having on two amazing wedding dresses and getting my bridal hair done and walking on a catwalk to promote a bridal store and the salon I work at. A stressful, nerve-racking and fun day!
Miley Cyrus concert – The first ´real` concert I went to was the Bangerz concert the 28th of April. With three of my close friends we made our way to the concert starting of by waiting in line for an hour or two and drowning as many beers as possible before the police would catch us. A fun & crazy concert, just like Miley.
Best friends good bye – 13th of July I had to say good bye to my best friend. She was on her way to explore the world, or at least Spain the coming year working as an au pair. There is nothing beautiful about good byes and I could only look forward to the day where I got to see her again.
Summer vacation – I worked the entire summer and had a well deserved vacation at the end of August. My mum and I flew to Germany to stay with my Oma for a week, and then we made our way to Italy. After a good week there we drove back to Germany for another three days before we took the flight home again. A fun and different holiday, seeing lots of new places and having one last good memory with my Oma.
Losing Oma – On Monday the 27th of October I was in my car when I got a text message from my mum. That weekend I knew it was getting worse for Oma and on Monday morning she passed away quietly and peacefully in her bed while sleeping. She was such an amazing and inspiring person and I wish I had more time to spend with her.
This year has had it´s ups and downs. It wasn’t a great year but neither a bad one. I have learned, loved and lost. Trying to figure out my life and who I want to be, and I strongly believe that 2015 is going to be that wonderful year where I do all of that. I´ll figure out who I am and what road my life will take.
Even if I love and lose again, I will have learned.